11-14-11 and Feeling the Love

I love the pink clouds at night that remind me of liquid lovelight. That was my major experience of 11-11-11. I merged with my higher self and was flooded with liquid pink lovelight. I saw it pouring out of my fingers, streaming to my brothers and sisters and out of my toes, streaming to my mother. Beautiful! It felt wonderful flowing through my veins and informing all of my cells: wake up! The lovelight is here! Soft like the colors of this photo I took, a little out of focus but I like it like that. A soft world without harsh edges. It is the way I see the world, through a slightly out of focus lens. When we pull back to a more bird's eye view of any situation and allow our hearts to soften, we can see the truth more clearly. The truth is that we are all made to love. Our hearts are made to giv
e love on a regular basis just as they are made to pump blood. It is its essential nature. Hearts are made to be open to give and receive love, that is what keeps them healthy. Heart health is more about the feelings that we express and receive than it is about the food we eat. Science is beginning to confirm this as it is understood that everything is energy. Our vibration determines our health. Self love is the single most important component of health. If we flood our body with love each day, caress our cells and organs with lovelight, they will all respond in a loving manner. If we store our stuck emotions in our organs and cells, dis-ease happens. A friend who has been journeying with her cancer expressed how the disease invaded all the parts of her body that she had not inhabited. That she was learning to inhabit all of her and love her body and her being.

It feels to me that the energies of 11-11-11 were about opening more room in the heart, lightening the load. Allowing the softening to take place, seeing life with that out of focus lens where the essence of a thing is what shines through. You can hear the angry words on the surface but by squinting your eyes and stepping back, you can see the heart that is full of fear. The little child who has lost his/her way and wants a helping hand back to the light of truth. The truth that they are lovable, that they are a child of the divine and love is their very nature, that they deserve love. As we know this, the world becomes a softer, more love filled place. This photo of one of the Tibetan deities with its fierce scowl is a great reminder for me that something can look scary on the surface but be filled with love within. (including ourselves when we find ourselves expressing anger or other scary emotions)

Yes, there was part of me ready to step into miracles. That did not happen yet the opening of hearts is a miracle. I know that the new age has begun as I feel Gaia's joy coming up through my feet. I believe that my desires are being made manifest and it is my job to line up with them vibrationally. My beloved, my community.....all is there when I have eyes to see. Each day I get closer when I am present to the moments, appreciating and enjoying what each has to offer. It is always the small things that bring the joy. Eating oatmeal in the morning with my son across the table, the yellow tulips that bring the sun into the kitchen, the sound of the bell that I ring each time I pass it on my way into the living room, my new purple hat that I bought yesterday as I walked and shopped with two dear friends. Now each time I put it on, I am with them once again and feeling the laughter and joy. Life is to be savored. While the outside world has yet to reflect the new energies, our inside world does. It is an internal experience and when enough of us vibrate that internal peace and love, the universe must respond to match it.

Hold on to the lovelight.....let it flow through irrespective of what the external world is showing you. It is our job to turn it all back to the reality of love that it is. We are masters at this.....it is time to remember how! I love you.

11-11-11 The Celebration!

Oh, deep breath. We are here. I have prepared for this day for so long. It is the day that we enter in, we walk through the portal to our new life. I may have posted this photo of this painting before but it is the image that works for me today. It is my favorite of my many paintings. The two white strokes are my beloved and I as we are walking through the golden door to our highest potential. Our highest service to the Creator and to our mother, Gaia. Today we are all gifted with this opening. There is nothing to bring except our hearts. All attachments fall away as we cut all cords to former beliefs, needs, desires, people, things. There is only this, the love, the love of our Mother/Father God for us and our love for Her/Him. The reality of love that is everything.

This energy can be so powerful as it comes in to these bodies that it is good to ground. Simply ask Mother Earth to ground you to her heart. You may feel her energy come up through your feet and legs as a tingling. Such a gift she gives to each. She loves to connect and speak with us. She wants all of her children to ascend with her. Imagine a love that can contain 7 billion people! She teaches us to love on that mighty scale.

Our Mother/Father wants to know our deepest desire. What is it that I want this day? I want more of my gifts to come in so that I can be of greater service to Gaia and mankind. I want to co-create a community that waves a banner that says, Home, this is a place of rest, of respite, a place of rejuvenation, a place to discover your joy once again amongst family who love you. Come! Yes, that is my deepest desire. To be a part of building such a place that is based on divine relationship. Where love is the beginning and the end. I wish to know the reality of love in all things and use my heart to melt all back to that reality. Love has become frozen on our planet and it is time to unfreeze it. To melt it all in our hearts back to the liquid light that it is, that we are.

Open your hearts wide and celebrate yourself today. It is a birthday of recognizing your own light and shining it out into the world. Turn inward and turn on your heartlight. We are all going home and it is what will light the way. I love you.

Lovelight

What a week we are in the midst of! 11-11-11 is days away, some are calling it the most auspicious day ever on this planet of ours. I awoke early to move my car before the street cleaning crew came by. My son joined me for an early morning drive across the city to Crissy Field. It is so lovely to walk along the beach with a view of the city silhouetted behind me and the Golden Gate bridge looming up ahead. Glorious! I feel so blessed to be here, especially when I get myself up and out of the small, dark apartment and enjoy the natural environments that abound in this city. There are many if one has time and energy to look for them. I was greeted with so many smiles today! I am a smiler by nature and today it seemed that folks were more open than usual to returning my smile. I believe that it is a result of all the divine love pouring into our planet from the Great Central Sun and coming from our dear mother Earth herself. I am feeling it hugely as joy vibrates my being and tears of gratitude, wonder and love flow. I am awash in this light and love, the lovelight. Yes, we are being bathed in lovelight. A beautiful pink orange magenta light flowing down like the softest rain. Can you feel it? Open your mouth to catch a taste of the drops. They are the sweetest nectar.

I like the way the sun cast the shadow of the bridge on the hillside. What a beautiful structure, painted so boldly and throwing its cables across this bay. What a concept! Imagine being the one who saw the potential and had the know how to make it happen. I feel that we are being asked to do this now. Visualize the new potentials, hold the picture clearly and allow the pieces to come together to bring it into manifestation. We are to co-create this new earth of ours. Friday is a wonderful time to do this as we all join our hearts together to meditate for world peace, abundance for all, freedom and joy as each person recognizes their own beauty and their unique gifts. Whatever constitutes your idea of the world that you would like to live in........hold that vision and send it out into the universe as a prayer, a meditation, a dance, a song, a tone, any way you feel drawn to. Google 11-11-11 events and find one that resonates with you. I will be joining my friend, Meredith at 11am for hers as well as my friend, Tiara's at 8:11 pm (oh these are Pacific standard time so be sure to convert to your time zone).

http://www.expectwonderful.com/111111-celebration.html

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We have done so much healing and releasing to come to this time of joining with our I AM Presence. I love that we no longer have to dig through our past or understand what our feelings are about. We can simply be the conduit to let them flow and let them go. Let go......on every level of your being. You may be releasing your old stuff from a painful childhood or from a past life or you may be transmuting it for the collective. It matters not. What is of importance when you are in the midst of emotional turmoil, is to take a breath, pull yourself back to that eagle's eye view, and remember to let the emotion be fully felt and present. Sit with it, observe it, express it (not by yelling at someone rather through writing, pounding

bread dough, watching a sad movie to allow deep sobs of sadness to come up, be creative!). And then sit back and watch it move out of your space. Do not hold on to it

in your thoughts by allowing it to play in the hamster wheel of your brain. Toss it out the angels and the violet flame (you simply ask the violet flame angels to transmute it...I ask them to mulch it into light for mother earth (best composting around!! Composting old outworn thoughts!) Let go of the "shoulds" in your life and choose "likes" as in I like to shop for yummy food, I like to do my laundry at the laundromat where the attendant remembered my name from last winter when I was here in the city. (How we like to be known!) Since I like that, I like to remember the names of the folks at shops and cafes that I frequent. Makes our world nicer. It is all perspective....some of our shoulds are holdovers from old programming that says that you must spend time with certain folks because of blood ties rather than joy ties or you can solve a problem by running it through your brain a thousand times over and worrying over it. It is time to truly honor ourselves by choosing new pathways, new ways of thinking and being. Time to know, truly KNOW that we are enough. Our being here on the planet is enough. There is no doing that is necessary except that which brings you joy. Move towards that joy flame in all that you do and your life will be transformed. Open your heart to this Friday's energy and know that our transformation is at hand. We are gods and it is time to claim this. I so love you all!!! I so love me and everything about me. We were the ones chosen to be here for the shift of the ages. Hold your heads high, square your shoulders and look in the mirror and smile! You are here, I am here! We are the strongest of the strong and we came to rise from duality into the light of unity consciousness as we remember that we are one.

This is a painting I did titled, Releasing. I laid down layer after layer of paint, a bit like my life story, layer after layer of events, people, emotions. I then took a scraper and began to scrap away all that no longer served me. I stopped when I had uncovered my truth....the radiance that I am. See that blue glitter shining through? The purple patches? All me. Some parts rough, some smooth. All me. I feel joy when I look at this and reach for my canvas and paints to create more of my beauty, more of my song. This life is a gift that I am savoring!

Sequestered, Silent, Peaceful

Do you like my childlike drawing of the beloveds? Yes, I am feeling this more and more each day, my heart twining with his heart to fill our chalice of love as the Creator streams down Her/His light to add to our chalice. Lovelight. That is my new word, lovelight is streaming in to the earth from the heavens as well as saturating the earth plane from Mother Gaia herself as she streams it up from her core. Each day, my beloved and I offer our chalice of lovelight in service to mankind and the ascension of the earth. There are new frequencies entering in. More detached, peaceful, soft. I feel as though I am drifting between worlds. There is a sense of missing friends, of a new kind of loneliness and yet no desire to take action to connect. Peace and stillness seem to envelop the hours of the days as minutes. It seems with each upgrade into a new frequency, there is a period of being in a void. A holding pattern as the body adjusts to the new energies. The past three weeks or so have been quite a roller coaster of upgrades. The light streams in making my body shake and move, heat up, cool down, all manner of strange twitches and pinpricks. Then the integration period of lying flat while energies are released. Today it was sadness. Not mine, but a global sadness as the old ways are dissolving. I work with Gaia, as do many others, to help release the denser energies so that she can take in more light. Whatever we are doing internally, we are creating externally in the world we see reflected around us.

I am grateful for the small group that I have been

working with to anchor in this divine love. Oh, to live in this love, to see the earth bathed in this love. Tears are frequent as I feel the enormity of this love that is our truth. Today we begin a week of energies such as this planet has never seen. The 11-11-11 portal comes to us on Friday and there are global events that you can tune into around the world. Please take the time to connect to one of the gatherings offered at 11:11 am and pm if you can. The power of many gathered in meditation for peace and love on this planet can create it. We are the co-creators of this new earth. This is an opportunity to step in and effect change in the new way, not so much by doing rather by being the love and peace that you wish to see in the world. I love this photo I took of the light on the water.....diamond light. That is what we look like, streams of beautiful sparkly light radiating across the lands. Turn your heart light on and shine bright! Soon we will see our reflection in everything.

Still LIfe

I set up this still life this morning to feed my soul. For less than $3, I am being fed mightily. A painting of mine is hanging in the corner next to this and its colors are a perfect match for the yellows, greens and peaches of the pears. Beautiful little organic pears, a few bites worth each and a whole week of meal's worth to my soul. Aren't we blessed! I may not have much of a view to the outside world from this apartment that has only one room that faces the openness of the street view. but these pears gift me with a world view of beauty and light. It is all perspective, isn't it? We can see the limitation of the wall next door or the expansiveness of orchards basking in the sun and rain of our mother. I can breathe in the scent of ripening fruit and bite into the elements that created it. I feel so expansive today! I am gifted with warm pumpkin muffins from the oven (it is such fun to have a kitchen to

play in once again) and this scene of beauty that is inspiring me to create art today. Maybe a pencil sketch with a touch of watercolor to suggest the hues. My skill is not as great as my mind's picture but I do create some art that fills my soul with delight and that is the whole point, isn't it? To create, to anchor into this earth plane the beauty that we feel. I am so seated in my heart these days. There have been many miracles occurring for me as I play out my part of bringing in this new earth. There is much that remains invisible that my heart's eye makes visible. To this, I hold. I am a vision keeper, I have been trained in the schools of Mother Mary to hold the immaculate concept. I hold to beauty and in truth, beauty is known through the heart rather than the eyes. Feel it all around you today, it is everywhere.

Babies!!! This print was in a small cottage that I recently rented. As soon as I saw it, I felt that it was the reason that I was there. The babies are coming! This picture captures the joy and delight of the babies that I saw flowing in my vision awhile back. They are so ready to bring their playfulness to the planet. I am seeing that the community that I am to co-create is about divine love. It will be a place of divine partnerships and sacred relationships. There will be many being reunited with their beloveds and creating a chalice for these little masters to come through. Oh, they are so gleeful!

The realms are overlapping and I find myself living much of the time in this dream space of love. It can be challenging to have one foot in this reality and one in another yet that is what is asked of us. To believe in what can't be seen, to hold the knowing of it deep in our hearts until it bursts through this hologram. There are so many 11-11-11 events being planned worldwide. So many hearts will be streaming their heartlights to the planet, the stars, the Creator and one another. The force of our hearts will break through to the peace and love that we know is our birthright. This is a sacred time. We are remembering our holiness. These little ones come to me to remind me of the joy. I can feel their fat cheeks under my lips and the delight of nibbling their chunky thighs. They are reminding me to dance and laugh my way to them.

Here is a link to my friend, Meredith's blog that explains beautifully the whole awakening process that I have been through:

http://expectwonderful.typepad.com/meredithmurphyblog/2011/10/you-were-made-for-this.html

Witnessing the End of the MAYAN calendar

I love San Francisco but did not see myself here. I arrived yesterday and was spent after packing up from the house we had rented on the coast for a week. Did not know the next step but here it is. Deep fatigue, hot and cold flashes, head pressure are all here. My body is continuing to integrate more light as I continue to release more density. Today is the end of the Mayan calender and this age. I found myself awake all night.....re reading a novel, checking out websites, playing in my heart space, drifting. I realized that I was witnessing the last hours of the old consciousness of duality and adding my intent for the birthing of the new unity consciousness. The golden age of peace is at hand. My body temple decided to stay awake and bear witness to this sacred time.

When I finally fell asleep for a couple of hours at 6am, I was told that I had ascended. I was laughing in my dream and wondering why it seemed ordinary. All is incremental, our hearts let go, the love flows in more and more. It is such a gentle process that carries us down the river to the ocean of God's love. The wonderful thing is that you cannot stop the river from flowing to the ocean, as it is its nature to do so. It is the same with us. We can resist or hold on to the shore but eventually all is swept down to the sea. I long ago, let go and allowed myself to be carried. To float on the river of love is a glorious thing. There have been times where I suddenly panicked and grasped for a rock or a branch to slow my passage. I clung on to some belief or value that I chose more time with before once again surrendering and dropping into the river of love. It has been such a game as we played in duality and believed in the stories we created. Now we can see that there has ever been only the reality of the Creator's love for us. We begin to see that we are so much larger and grander than we ever dared dream.