White Eagle and healing of the land

Yesterday, I experienced a remarkable event. I was with three friends and we were doing some work with crystal bowls. There were three women and one man who is an Apache Indian.

One of the women told me her dream of the night before about a white eagle. I had been talking about a friend of mine, Chief Golden Light Eagle which she took as a sign that she was to share her dream with me.

In her dream, she saw a white eagle fall from the sky. It was injured and she moved towards it. Someone came and shot it to "put it out of its misery". My friend was upset and went to find a vet who could help the eagle. She did find a vet and with the help of her daughter, he was able to remove two bullets from the eagle. The vet came towards her holding the eagle in his hands and she had a feeling of lightness, that the eagle would be well.

This dream held a great meaning for her personally.

We formed the four directions as we sat and one of the women played the crystal bowls. As she played the grandmother bowl, I began to cry. My tears ran down my cheeks and turned into a torrent as I began to sob. My friend who had had the dream said that she wanted to come to me to comfort me but was limited by her wheelchair. At that point she sent the eagle that had been flying around her to me to "lift me up".

I began to channel the eagle's words. I saw the tribal lands of Turtle Island (North America) with black smoke rising from them. I saw threads connecting all the lands across our continent. The land was releasing clouds of swirling smoke like energy. The eagle told me that this was the pain and oppression that the Native Americans had endured. It had been held deep in the land and now it was time to release it. Mother Earth is ascending and the land must be cleansed.

I felt the cords of oppression around my neck and stated that it was time for them to be removed from all the Native Americans. My friends used their hands to pull the cords off of me. The pain moving through my body was felt on every level though the words came: "The burden is light". I knew that it was moving through me to be transmuted and though I was feeling it, it was not heavy as I was the observer as well as the vessel through which it moved. I did not see images of suffering and death yet felt its energy. It was black swirling energy lifting into the air. The eagle was spiraling upward and taking the energy up to the light.

I connected to Chief Golden Light Eagle in South Dakota which is the only tribal land that I have spent time on. I saw the elders of the tribes looking skyward. They saw what was happening and added their energy to help release the clouds of pain and oppression. The eagle said that the land must be lightened so that hope and joy can be restored once again. He/She called in the violet flame to transmute the energies.

I then saw rivers of diamond light flooding through, washing the land clean. Oh, the joy of that vision! I begin to laugh with delight at all the sparkles and radiance.

I wanted to chant and sing a Native American song to seal the energies of what had taken place. I called on Chief Golden Light Eagle to sing with me as I toned my notes of joy and thanksgiving.

It is time. Our Native American tribes have knowledge to lead the way home to our Mother. They can help us remember how to honor her and connect to her heart.

I am not Native American but rather of Irish descent. Yet we are all one. We are the white eagle, we are the Apache, we are the Lakota, we are every tribe, every tree, every animal. We are one with our Mother Earth. This memory is coming back to all of us so that we may all co-create the New Earth and walk into her lands together.

I felt such gratitude for the privilege of being a vessel through which some of the dense energies could be released and transformed. I recall my son telling me that it was not for the Native Americans to walk out of that oppression on their own but rather it was the responsibility of those of us who had not lived under such oppression in this lifetime, to help free them from this weight. His words were true.

My Apache friend, Frank has worked for and with Native American tribes across the country for 40 years, never suspecting that he was a Native American himself. A couple of years ago he met an Apache man with a French surname. It turned out that the man's grandmother and Frank's grandmother were cousins. Frank discovered through Indian census records that his grandfather was Apache but at one point in his life had had to hide his identity in order to survive as Apaches were being killed. During this gruesome period of our country's history, Frank's grandfather had had to declare himself Mexican and lose his heritage. Frank has his grandfather's vest which he wore for much of his journey. He allowed me to place my hands on it and I could feel the weight of what he had endured in his life.

Frank now wears his medicine bag about his neck with his buffalo totem on the front. He has reclaimed his roots. It is a beautiful thing to witness.

We are now at a time of reclaiming our roots as star beings and children of our Mother. Say your prayers for the healing of our Mother's heart. We are moved into a time of magic. We can do and be so much more than we ever imagined. Intent is all. Intend the world that you wish to live in; feel it. breath it, visualize it. It is becoming more real each day.

(I forgot to add that the photo is a picture of Lakota Chief Golden Light Eagle from South Dakota.)

Maxie is back and non-attachment

The police called to say that they had found my car. Maxie was not far away and she had not been harmed other than polluted with cigarette smoke. She has a new wider rear view mirror which is interesting. She was full of odd items: a case of bottled water, reading glasses (was it a middle aged joy rider?) a clip on reading lamp, several lighters, joints and cigarettes, bags of clothes, a deck of cards, a plug in computer type item, a cd case, a wetsuit type head covering, a beanie, scissors and a pocket knife. Most of my camping gear was intact. Only missing my panier bag of kitchen camping stuff, my tire chains (bag there but chains are gone), bluetooth, flashlights, my feathers and my rosary and prayer beads. My sand dollars are still on the back ledge and my rocks seemed to be scattered about.

As I wonder about the people who were using her from the evidence left inside, they must have wondered about me in much the same way. Who is this rock collecting, camping gear lugging person with the Native American music and Indian chants and Bert's Bee supplies? It is a funny thought what our possessions say about us. I have so few left.

My treasure is my Mother Mary statue that I have had since my first Holy Communion. She is from Italy (you can only imagine how exotic that tiny sticker made this seven year old girl feel!) She is ceramic and has only one tiny scratch on her after all of these years of traveling around with me. She stands on a snake that used to scare me a bit as a child. I would try not to look at that snake under her feet. I can recall how reverently I would dust her and care for her. She is all that survived my childhood and I am not sure how she did but I am glad.

Yet even she could go as I am connected to Mother Mary in my heart always.

Strange experience. Have to take Maxie in to the car spa tomorrow for a clean sweep. I feel a different sense of her. Unattached. She will not be my home again in the same way. She will drive me where I need to go but more as a tool to be utilized. Funny, I had so completely released her that it seems odd that she is back.

I truly know that our hearts are what matter. Material things have been our trap and it feels so good to have stepped away from so much. I believe that we are coming to simpler times where we will have all that we need and we will realize that we need so much less.

I feel very Japanese in the mornings as I fold up my duvet and my futon and transform my bedroom back into the tiny living room. We have gotten programmed to believe that we need a room for each person. We must have a guest room and all the extras. My trip to India changed my idea of space for all time. Whole families sleeping on straw mats on the earth or concrete floor. Old folks and young, sleeping easily and well together. That experience helped me to prepare me for my months of camping and sleeping on my mat on the ground.

I believe that there will be a collective sigh of relief as we enter into this new age of peace and abundance for all. How much happier we will be with less stuff to care for, less to remove us from the rhythms of our Mother. Imagine waking with the knowledge that everyone of our brothers and sisters on the planet has shelter and food. Has enough. Close your eyes and feel what that thought feels like in your body.

Did you let out a long sigh? Did you feel your solar plexus relax?

We have been enslaved by the pursuit of more. Thankfully we are waking up and saying enough is enough. We are moving into a time of such freedom where we will have enough. All will have enough. Be enough.

Ahhhh........I can hear the sighs now. Hold the vision. Feel the feeling. This is who we are. We are all interconnected and we want all that we want for all. Therein lies our peace. Therein lies our freedom. Therein lies our joy.

Stargate

There is an old deck of cards from the 70's called the "Stargate" that my friend, Jeanette has. The cards have pictures and a word or two on the other side. There is a plastic mat that has outlines to place the cards on in a certain order. It is a very powerful tool as you are forced to go deeply into the images and words and find your connection to them. It is especially powerful if you have a friend to do it with who can hold space for you and encourage you to go beyond the surface hit that the pictures give.

My friend. Jeanette is such a person. I think that she could do Stargate readings for others.

One card is your "issue" and you decide this before you begin.

My issue was: How do I move into my power, purpose and joy for 2011?

This card was the star of impulse which is about experiencing. Below this card is a space for Me Now and that card was a picture of fog...diffused, delusions, enveloping. I will tell this story at the end as it is the main picture represented in the center above.

On the left side of the mat you place 3 cards: your old focus and two things that are behind you. My old focus was a tower which was about focusing attention. The two things that were behind me were a star of seeking and a star of hope which had the word trust.

As I put these three images together to create a story you can see it visualized in my drawing of the tower on the left above:

I am traveling up the steps of a tower in my monk's robe. (yes, so many lifetimes as a nun or monk) encountering stars of wisdom along the way. I carry the star of hope in my heart, trusting the journey to lead me home. It is a solitary journey, alone in this castle.

This speaks to the past year and a half of travel, moving onward, not knowing anything but listening for the next step. Trusting that somehow it would all bring me back to myself in a new way. Difficult at times as my old "doer" self questioned the validity of my journey. What good was I doing in the world? How was I serving anyone? Yet, I could only climb the onwards to the next step, seeking, always seeking. Indeed I have found so many of my soul family during this journey for which I am profoundly grateful.

On the right side of the mat is your new focus and two things that are ahead of you. My new focus turned into two cards as they came together when I pulled one. An image of rain and one of a duck. The two cards ahead of me were a block and a wand.

The story that I created is pictured on the right above with the magic wand:

I am excited about finally building a foundation for my new life with my building block. I am thrilled to be wielding my magic wand (my creative gifts) at last! Tears of joy (the rain) wash over me as I am SO happy to be creating. I will be with my beloved (ducks mate for life) in a setting of natural beauty and we will swim along in peace. Also the expression: water off a duck's back will apply to us as we will not let anything ruffle our feathers or disturb our deep sense of peace.

That story says it all! I am ready.

On the bottom of the mat is a space for something that is distracting you as well as something that is helping you. I pulled a pink rose for my distracting and an egg for my helping. Here is the story:

A pink rose is my symbol. It represents love to me in the highest order. It is a symbol of who I see myself as. My love for Joseph has been distracting me from my path. I could not understand his pulling away with my mind. I see that when I open my egg of creativity by engaging my creative self, my love can actually bloom more fully. The rose emerges from the opened egg. I must express myself in order to fully open to the love that I am.

Wow, did that ever knock my socks off! Time to turn the attention away from Joseph and back to myself. Time to use my gifts and let the love flow through them.

Now I was able to discover the meaning of the fog and star. Here is the story that describes the main drawing:

I am someone who has transcended the fog of delusion. I spent time frantically searching for a way out of the darkness using the old tools that I knew. Finally I was forced to surrender, I was too tired to fight anymore. I laid down in the darkness, allowed it to completely envelop me. I watched as my body disappeared and I was consumed by the darkness. I felt no emotion, rather at peace, observing it all. Then a tiny flame began to glow. It grew into a star of blazing light that seemed to implode from inside of the nothingness that was me. I began to sob as I suddenly knew in every cell of my being that the light and the dark are one and the same. They are contained in one another. The fog is the illusion of separateness/ duality. Yet there is only oneness, unity. Life is one. We are all one with our Creator and one another and the earth and all of her kingdoms.

This was like an earthquake through my soul. I truly felt reborn after this experience.

So who is ready for a stargate party??? Let's do it!

Last night I awoke dreaming of stargates. Yeserday I read a book: Eternal Twin Flame Love, The story of ShannaPra. It had a picture of a stargate on the cover with a pathway leading to it. A twin flame couple was walking on the path towards the stargate.

I am ready to walk through the stargate with my beloved.

Releasing the old

Yesterday was the 1:11:11 portal. I felt that I moved through a gateway, an expansion of myself. It felt like a shiver running through the earth as we entered into a new time.

Lakota Chief Golden Eagle sent out a message yesterday and these lines echoed in my heart:

"The new government of light is sending forth the command to all those that have

been waiting, IT IS NOW TIME TO AWAKE, the awakening of Aquarius..

1-11-11 is the beginning of the fall of all false prophets. All false governments will slowly
decline and will no longer be in service unto themselves. Structures that do not serve the
light will implode and the government of Light will slowly emerge when the Fire of Truth
is revealed. This is the cycle that humanity has created for themselves. It is the rhythm
of life."

Being an Aquarian, I have been waiting for my "age" to begin my entire life! So all of this is happening globally. Transparency will be the new way and all that is old must fall away. There is a purging of the denser energies of the earth as she releases all that no longer serves the New Earth.

Personally, it is happening for me as well.

My car departed (stolen it seems) a few days ago. My "Maxie" was not just any car. True she was a bit older, 15 years to be exact. But for the past year and a half, she was my partner in my earth work. In all that time of driving thousands of miles, she never let me down. I slept in her at times when I was too tired from the drive or no camping spot or motel was in sight. She ran beautifully and fully participated in our work as she laid down tracks of rainbow light behind us as we drove. We seeded the New Earth with light and love every mile. I had never been attached to a car before but I saw that inanimate objects do indeed become animate through our attention and love. Maxie was my velveteen rabbit! I had all my camping gear in the trunk as basically I carried all my remaining possessions in her. No insurance coverage as over the years I had opted for less coverage due to her age. That was ok, I know that material things are just that and can be replaced. I am fortunate to have money to replace her.

But it felt interesting on a couple of levels. Like ha, here I just made the decision to move to Bowen Island near Vancouver, Canada and my way of getting there, my car disappears. Such amazing timing. Definitely significant. I am paying attention to the signs around me.

Next, I had last used my camping gear with my beloved Joseph in Maxie. After having found one another six months ago and recognizing ourselves as twin flames, he retreated into his idea of the noble path of pain and suffering alone in his woods.

Releasing this relationship has been an on-going process for me these past two months.

I had bought Maxie while I was still in my marriage. Was there still some of that energy attached to her? Perhaps it is time for all of those connections to be gone for good?

Yes, it seems that it is!

One of the wonderful things about being on a spiritual path, is that you accept everything as it occurs. You trust that there is a higher purpose at work even if you cannot see it nor understand it.

I have an steadfast faith that is like a river of light in me. For all that I have been through, I can always turn to it for refreshment.

I wonder what is being prepared for me? Is there something here in San Francisco for me? I came for a few days of rest after Joseph asked me to leave and have been here for over two months, sleeping on the living room floor of two of my adult children's apartment. It has been a very healing, inward time. Lovely time of connection with my kids that has had us losing our old roles and enjoying one another deeply. I have been very cared for and my guidance kept giving me the message, "You are in a safe place, rest." So here I am.

Grateful and open to the next step!

Tapping into the Goddess within

My daughter was sharing one of her new year's discoveries. She loves to nurture her body (she is an athlete) and enjoys the pampering of self as she puts on lotion and make up, does her hair, and dresses up. The ritual of preparing to go out, helps her connect to her goddess self. She notices that people then respond to her as the goddess, treating her with kindness and respect. She receives a lot of attention from men but has discovered the more she has connected to her inner goddess, the more she attracts a higher vibration of care and attention from men. They treat her well, they know that she is the goddess! She is beginning to expect that standard of treatment.

She was so excited to realize that the feeling is generated inside and she can now tap into her goddess self at will. She sees that the outer behavior of others is merely a reflection of her own beauty and light. She is the generator of her experience.

I love learning from my children! They each gift me with new understandings of myself.

So today, I am going to use that lavender body oil when I get out of the shower. I am going to stand in front of the full length mirror as I lovingly apply it to my body. I am going to caress my body as I smooth the oil onto my skin. I am going to thank this beautiful body for outpicturing my goddess self.

And I am going to thank my daughter for showing me the way!!

Sisterhood

This morning I was speaking with a dear sister of mine. I was reflecting on this beautiful picture that a friend had just posted. I recall the feeling of love and connection with one another and our Mother Earth as we experienced this complete rainbow in the sky.

There are so many false pardigms that we have lived under for so long. We are beginning to awaken from the matrix that has enslaved us and to move into the light of freedom.

Can you feel the power of the sisterhood? We are the creators. We carry the wombs that birth new creation on this earth. There has been a systematic attempt to pull us apart so that we would not be in our power. We have moved from the ways of old where women gathered at the well. The well is a metaphor for us as our spiritual center and source of replenishment.

The well was our nourishment as we supported one another and raised our children. Think how the nuclear family has pulled us into isolation, each of us alone in the raising of our children, focused on the man as the hub of the family. The media fed us the lie that we are a jealous, catty species, out to steal one another's men. We were taught to hold tightly to our little family and not get too close to other women, after all, that friend may end up stealing your man! Our men felt threatened when we spent time with our girlfriends. Were we talking about them? Were we forgetting them or perhaps realizing that we need not be so dependent upon them?

Women together are a force to be reckoned with! I recall being on a college tour with my son and one of his friends. We drove into a town where there was a breast cancer walk underway. As we navigated around and through the thousands of women walking, my son looked at me and said, " Wow. Women are so powerful together. It feels almost scary to be amongst them."

He was right! We are powerful together. We need to reclaim our sisterhood. Our children need to be raised with the gift of community as they then benefit from a happier and more balanced mother and are able to receive the gifts from all the other women. We have so much to share!

Our men have also lost out under this nuclear family arrangement. They have little outlet for authentic communication with other men. It has been relegated to watching sporting events together and trips to strip clubs. Mostly lower vibrational activities that do not bring in any of the sacredness of life. They are disconnected from their power.

We have been duped. The nuclear family was an economic arrangement to lock us into a cycle of working and buying to feed the controlling elite. It has not served us as individuals or as a society. We are all longing for the sacred in our lives. We are longing for connection and community. We are longing to strengthen our connection to our Mother Earth.

We women can show the way home. We are the wayshowers, we are the ones to reclaim our connections to one another, to our children and our men.

We know the holiness of our wombs, we have carried the child in our wombs and in our hearts. Let us reach out to one another, embrace our power in the fullness of the Creator's love and birth this New Earth. Our time is now.

New Year's Day 1:01:11

Here we are! We have walked through the portal and find ourselves in a very new landscape. The energy is quicker, lighter, freer. We have stepped into the space of creating our dreams. Sounds like heaven, doesn't it? Yet there is the responsibility of being very clear as to what those dreams are.

What is it that you truly want? What is the desire that is so close to your heart, that speaking it aloud, brings tears.

My desire is to be in divine union with my beloved. To be a co-creator with another and to invite God into the mix to create with us as our gift of service to the world. The couple in divine union, who are consciously expressing that love and amplifying one another's light, are offering a huge gift to the world. As they become the vessel through which the Divine can flow through, the vibration of Mother Gaia is lifted as the couple anchor in that energy of love. I know that this is the next step for me as I have been given a vision of all these beautiful pillars of light around the planet. More and more couples are being called to co-create these divine unions to accelerate the light on the planet.

I did meet my twin, I did become a pillar of love with him and we anchored in the energy of the divine masculine and the divine feminine for the 10-10-10 portal. It was beautiful. The very next day, all the shadow aspects arose and my beloved retreated into his path of suffering and rejected the love.

He has been in his cave ever since, with no communication.

I have had to look at myself and see where I was still not believing that I am worthy of love. I am grateful for this gift from him. I also uncovered this need to control the relationship, needing my own sovereign space, not wanting to be enmeshed. We both have such a strong need for freedom that we trigger one another. I am watching these aspects come up in me as I look back to observe myself while I was with him.

So, now I know that I want to be in divine union, funnily, my personality self is not that interested in it but my soul knows that it is the next step.

I have released attachment to whether it is the man I was with or not.

I have erased the face from the energy and now invite the energy of my beloved to come to me.

I have had some very powerful lovemaking experiences with this energy. Yes. Truly you can make love with the essence of someone else. No touching, simply feelings moving through so amazingly. I have invited him in to sleep with me, cuddle me. We are in communion and I feel him around me. I believe that this means that the relationship is close. I have let go of my mind that questions it all.

Such as: How can it be someone other than the one you were with?

How could you have such intense feelings for someone and it not work out?

How could he close the door on you?

On and on my mind went trying to figure it all out. I have let go of him and am looking at me. I want to feel love, I want to be in love. So it begins with me.

Today I have felt this love from this other's energy and from my I AM Presence.

That is more than enough. I can let go of the story (I love the story!!!) and be with the moment.

Ah...peace.